Tag: Relationships

i’m fucked up and i miss you

i lay awake and think of you

remember that time i drove your grandpas car? we didn’t actually get that far

it’s been months since i’ve seen you

so why does it feel like you’re still in my rear view

i miss looking over in the passenger seat

my hand on your thigh, the world in my eyes

some may say that a heartbreak is an aesthetic

but with how many times i let you tear me down i just feel pathetic

pathetically in love with you

pathetically devoted to you

i wonder if you miss me as much as i miss you

i know my heart still beats for you

can you hear it from miles away?

that’s where i need you to stay

with one touch of your poison hands

i will be in a trance

even though i know it always ends in tragedy

i am tired

i am sad

i miss you even more now

i hope the next person you’re with loves all of your flaws like i did

even when they felt like claws, tearing me away

the claws that dug so deep i still have scars

i hope the next person you’re with doesn’t make you angry

that’s a fire no one can put out, i tried and only got burned

i hope the next person you’re with knows their worth

and does NOT let you take that from them

i hope they don’t get blinded by the way you say their name

particularly with those three words on the end

if your claws get deep into their back,

they can feel it in their bones

i hope they push them back out and say NO MORE

i really hope the next person you’re with gets treated better than i did

and this may be messed up, maybe it’s just

your roots are grown in me

i secretly wish they don’t make you forget me

i wonder if you saw me walking on the street, would you recognize me?

would you recognize the eyes of the person who talked you back from the edge when you were at your lowest?

or have you just gone and forgotten about me

have you forgotten about the long nights we stayed up until the sun was shining through our windows

what about all the times i said your name and your face lit up? or was that all a lie?

i know i will never forget the way my name sounded coming from your lips

i’ll never forget going to the bathroom not barely through a 12 hour work shift and sobbing because i heard you were in an accident

i didn’t know how bad

i didn’t know if you were alive

all i could do was sit and wait

and i swear to you

those were the longest heart wrenching moments of my life

i remember your favourite songs

i remember what time you ate dinner every night

i remember the smallest things

i sit here and wonder

do you remember me too?

or am i just something that has disappeared in your rearview mirror?

you were just passing through me.

i was just a quick stop for you,

while you were

you were

the greatest home i ever had

Let me tell you about the girl who ruined me.

My mother warned me about strangers.

My mother warned me about drugs.

My mother warned me about heartbreak.

She did not warn me about you.

I was not warned that pretty eyes and a soft touch could

be so poisonous to my heart.

When she came into my life, the lights were drawn back.

My heart awoke ready for love.

You put your head on my heart you can feel

the drum on my ribs of her stardust wanting to break free.

Flowers started to bloom in my lungs that I started breathing nothing but your sweet words.

Until you set fire to my heart.

My ribs collapsing unsure of what would remain when you were done.

My heart not wanting to beat without you.

Do not sit here and tell me you’re hurting.

Do not sit here and tell me you love me.

Do not sit here and tell me I’m the one who ripped your heart out.

You have no right.

My bones still ache for you each morning.

My lungs as weeping willows crashing waiting for you to come back and put the fire out.

The fire that you started.

My body is your carcass.

Surrounding by the words you spoke, but never meant.